Well, this is me posting since I haven't posted in forever :) To be honest..the only thing that is on my mind is not good so I will talk about sometime else.

Rabbits and Badgers...are..AMAZING!!! HAHA!!

So in order for me to not mutilate myself...i have to lie and say that i am ok so that i don't fuck up and wind up pissing off everyone that i know :)

Stressed Part II

Lately, it seems that I am running around without a break. My days are packed and my nights are packed and I'm going insane. Haha! My average days looks like this:

7 - wake up
8 - class
9 - break (HELL YEAH!!!)
10 - meeting
11 - work for ONE hour...how f'in stupid! (Job 1: DSU)
12 - class
1 to 5 - work (Job 2: Holiday Inn)
5 to 1 in the AM - work (Job 3: Blackjack dealer)
1 to 7 - sleepy

It sucks and I'm getting worn out. I constantly am telling myself "Don't worry...you're almost there." That line is getting old and I'm not falling for it anymore. I'm just ready to quit it all..haha. This is the point where Kim walks in and says, "Savannah...you're so black and white. Can't you find a medium?" haha...Well, this was good. I made myself laugh and that helped me out a little bit. :) hehe I guess I better get back to work, bye guys! Love you!

Happy Valentine's Day!!

I hope that everyone is having a grand Valentine's Day! Is anyone doing anything special? I have to work, and to top it off...Christopher is sick. Poor boy :( We already told each other that we wouldn't get each other anything so all in all...it's not a very pleasant Valentine's Day for the Brecht Family, but oh well, there will be plenty of them to come.

Well, my best friend left for New Zealand. Crazy girl :) Her card to me said that since she's not here to check on me..I'm suppose to make a cardboard cut out that has a talking bubble that says, "Have you eaten yet? Savannah...." Haha! What a goon! So at least we parted with a laugh.

Well, I would love to hear how everyone's V-Day is going or what sorts of plans you have for later...so post away my friends! :)

Sigh...

So, one of my best friends(yes I have 3..hehe), well she is moving very very far away. At least I consider it pretty far, New Zealand isn't exactly the easiest road trip right? I'm really happy for her because when she graduated college she was sad because she didn't know what she wanted to do with her life. She's insanely brilliant, but just lost as to what will make her happy. So she decided to go spend a year in New Zealand. Haha! Well, she leaves on Tuesday and of course I am being selfish. I'm really going to miss her. She is literally the only person in this world that knows everything about me. The only one! She is the only one that I could talk to if I wanted to. I'm not big on the whole gushing about my life, so it's rare that I open up anymore..but still :( I'm really happy that she is going to go out and have some fun, and another friend of our's decided that she would tag along so that's reassuring. I will get to see her again in August for a friend's wedding, but other than that...that's going to be about it. Chris and her don't like each other at all so I'm sure that neither of them will be gun-ho about road trips to visit. Ya know?

I guess this all leads to a very nervewracking moment nearing in my life...I'm friggin' moving! :) Haha.. For real though, I'm so anxious about Utah. I am really really nervous because here at school I was/am pretty well known and for the most part people really liked/like me. It wasn't because I'm pretty, skinny, or have a lot of money. It was because I'm outgoing and fake. At college, I choose not to show the pain inside. Everyone just sees me for a few attributes: I'm Stuart's sister, I use to be in 1,000 activities so you had to like me or your club didn't get funding, unfortunately I have a gigantic set of ladies, and my least favorite...I can drink enough for 13 people.

I'm nervous that when I get to Utah, that nobody will like me. I'm excited that I won't be known for any of those 4 things...well, maybe the ladies, but the other ones I am very ready to let go of. I'm afraid that once people see me without those..they won't like me. Then I will have to change, and then I will be right back where I was...well hopefully at the weight I was at(sorry-but it's what I am thinking).

I just really want to crawl in a whole because for one of the hardest things...I won't have my best friend and I'm scared. Well, that's my rant for the evening. I have to go do a lot of homework. Bye.