Wowsers

It has been forever since I have updated my blog. I'm not certain that any of you even read these anymore. Haha. Well, Elliott is 4 months old today and work is going good. Chris and I are great, and overall...we are just having a good time in Rapid City. Well, I look forward to reading all of your blogs and being updated. Bye ladies :)

Time Flies By!

Wow, time has seriously gone by so fast. How has everyone been?! What is everyone up to?! I've just been hanging out with Elliott and I went back to work part time a week and a half ago. Everything is going well with Elliott and I'm doing good for the most part. Of course I have post-partum depression so that rocks. Not. Haha. Oh well, things could always be worse. Well, here's a pic of the little guy showing attitude and sticking his tongue out :) Miss you all!

My First Day Home

Hello everyone! I finally got to go home and mom couldn't wait to take pictures of me :) Haha! Here is one of me in my cute swing and one of me snuggling with mommy. Have a good weekend ladies!

Elliott Randall Brecht

Hello everyone! Sorry that I haven't posted or been on in a long time to read your blogs, but I was having my little guy :) He decided that he couldn't stand it in there and he came exactly 4 weeks early. They had to admit him into the NICU so he could work on his breathing a little better. His lungs weren't quite as ready as he was. Now he is working on his eating. (My husband and my brother told me that he's already taking after his mom...haha...it made me laugh) Once he gets better at eating we get to bring him home. We are hoping by the beginning of this coming week, but my hopes of bringing him home sooner than later keep getting crushed so we'll see how soon we really do.

I must say that this moment has taken the cake of the hardest time in my life. Being a mother is the most amazing, but not being able to help him and thinking that it is your fault he's hurting is so hard. I keep looking back at my pregnancy wondering what I did wrong. Maybe I ate chocolate when I should have had vegetables or maybe I didn't drink enough water...all of these things come to mind. It doesn't help that my mother-in-law hates me and she says it's my fault, but I would think that even without her opinion.

This week has been the most exhausting and the most amazing I have ever experienced. I'm just ready for him to come home. But here is a picture of the little guy :) His cute little smile and blonde locks crack me up. Hehe.

Elliott Randall Brecht
April 10, 2009 @ 5:59pm
19 inches, 6lbs 6.6oz

Last Month

Finally, I am in my last month of pregnancy. This last month just happens to be 5 weeks long, but that's ok with me because it's still considered my last month...YAY! Things are going well. We are finally starting to get everything rounded up for the little guy and ready for him to come join us. I'm getting excited and anxious..hehe :) Well, I just thought it had been a little long since my last update so I figured I would post one. Have a good weekend everyone!

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Here is a picture of the little guy and I at 29 1/2 weeks. We get to put the crib up tomorrow so I'm very excited about that. Pretty soon the room that isn't at all a nursery will be his little home :) Now all we need is to come up with a name. Ha!

3-D Ultrasound

Introducing the latest picture of my little man. Isn't he handsome? His little hand is hanging out by his cheek. I hope that he's this mellow after he's born...haha :)

Sick of the growing bump..

I went to the doctor's office on the 8th, and even though it was the best appt. so far since we got to find out...it was the worst for me as well. Up until that appt. I really hadn't gained all that much weight. I didn't gain a ton of weight, but I gained just enough in the 1 month that I think I'm going to go crazy. That is all that is on my mind, and I can't seem to quit obsessing about it. The sick thing is that I'll be gaining close to 20-30 more pounds and I don't think I'm prepared for it. I compare myself to everyone else here in SD, home in ND, pictures of friends on the internet, etc. and I can't stand myself.

I know that I'm pregnant and gaining weight is a good thing when your pregnant, but I'm a wreck. In the doctor's office that day I was speechless, and my husband goes, "Wow..that's great hunny...the medicine must be working." Aka: "Wow...you're a cow."

I just want to quit being pregnant. I want to be able to go on a diet. I want to lose all this weight and everything that I gained since 2005. I'm done with this new Savannah. I feel depressed because I'm not where I want to be and it's my fault that I let myself get out of hand. I should have had more control after I got out of the center and I let myself go and I am so unattractive that I make myself sick.

Everyone says that pregnant women are the most gorgeous and how can I be gorgeous when I nearly punch the mirror everytime I stare at my reflection?

It's a.......

BOY! We will be bringing a new little guy into the world due May 8th.