Belly Pics

I've had quite a few people ask when I will be putting up belly pictures on my facebook and myspace. Is it completely crazy that I'm not taking these pictures? I am so very uncomfortable with the thought of having pictures of an even bigger me than before. I don't take any pictures. I'm lucky that my husband doesn't really know anything or care about these little things because he has never even asked.

I'm very nervous for when I do start showing because everyone will focus on how fat I'm getting and it's hard enough to deal with by myself let alone everyone else noticing. Especially when my husband wants to see my stomach because I can honestly say that he hasn't seen my stomach in at least a year. I'm getting nervous for when he wants to see my baby bump.

Is it weird that I don't take baby tummy pictures? I don't think that I can bring myself to do it. Before I was pregnant..I wasn't a huge fan of pictures because of how big I've gotten. To add to that horrible feeling...I'm only going to get bigger than I was before and there isn't much that I can do. This isn't fun and it makes me uber sad.

Enough sad talk from me...have a great week everyone!!! :)

My Trip to AZ/NV

I forgot to blog about my trip...oh my :O The trip was great, but of course way too short. It was so nice to see my sister, bro-in-law and their girls, my mom, and Stuart(my brother). I don't have very many pictures...but here are a few:


This is a picture of me playing slot machine :)


This is a picture of my brother playing a slot machine :)


Here is a picture of my mom and brother singing karaoke :)

I can't wait to see all of them again...only 5 1/2 more months!!! Yay!!!

Same old thing

So, I've been thinking lately...I do absolutely nothing with my life. I work 40 hours a week and then the leftovers are for sleeping and absolutely nothing. I truly hate Rapid City because I'm so bored all the time. The fact that I barely ever see Chris because he works nights and I work whatever I am scheduled whether it be 7-3 or 3-11. The 7-3 days really suck because I don't see him at all then, but the others...at least we have the morning. To add to the never-see-Chris...I don't ever get a weekend day off and Sat./Sun. are his days off.

If I had a friend it wouldn't be as difficult, but as of right now life royally blows. I would pick up a hobby, but I really don't know if it would be good for me because whenever I have tried something I have not been good at it and I feel that trying something and failing would be worse than not even trying.

On a positive note...I had my 2nd baby appt. and everything is going well. I got a flu shot, got my blood drawn, and got weighed and we were done. It was speedy and she said that everything sounds great. That's nice to hear.

Well, talk to you all later...sorry I was such a downer this time. Hope all is well!!

Work is Boring

Well, here I sit at the good ol' Holiday Inn..BORED OUT OF MY MIND! However, I'm getting uber excited for my trip to Arizona to see my sister, nieces, and mother. My brother and I are both flying down there and we are getting excited :)

It should be fun to hangout with everyone and help my mom unpack. My mom just moved down there and since she broke her leg not too long ago...she's not able to unpack very much by herself. My step-dad has to stay in North Dakota to work a little bit longer and it wows me that they will be apart from each other for close to 5 years. Isn't that crazy? Chris and I drive each other nuts sometimes, but we can't be apart for that long...we'd go nutty.

Completely off topic, but since this blog is random anyways..it's ok.
Brie - I tried to get that modeling thing and put it on my myspace page, but it wouldn't let me. I was just wondering what I was doing wrong..hehe.

Well, everyone...I will write more when I get back after my 2nd baby appointment. Yay! Have a great week and take care!!

It's back...

All in all, my pregnancy has been going rather well. I've had the average morning sickness and what not, insomnia, and frequent nausea...but that's just part of the package. Up until the past week to 2 weeks I didn't really have too much sadness or stress over my body image. I just chalked it all up to the fact that I HAD to do it all no matter what. Don't get me wrong..I'm been very eager to begin a diet once the baby is born, but I just set it aside in my mind for another 6 months.

Then it happened...I had a bad weekend last weekend, and what do you think I do? I resorted to what I always had without even realizing it. It just happened. When I got to work and the girl that I work with asked what we should do for dinner I unintentionally said, "Oh, I'm sorry I already ate." Right away I noticed what I said and then realized that I hadn't eaten that day or the day before. I have since gotten much better, but throughout this pregnancy...it's just been hard to eat at all..not because of the demon.

Overall, I guess I just surprised myself because I thought that I would be able to notice when I was feeling that way. It just woke me up a little to see that I still resort to that whenever I am sad or uncomfortable. I should probably talk to Chris, but he seriously is not good at talking about stuff. He just looks at me and seems confused and bored. Haha!

That was very random and I'm rather embarassed, but oh well. I guess I was just checking if anybody could relate to resorting to it unknowingly sometimes. Well, have a great weekend :)

1st Appt

Baby Brecht's 1st Photo Shoot :)

The appt. went well, and we found out that both of us are healthy. Yay! I'm due on May 8th and everything is going well with the pregnancy so that's good.

Just thought I'd post an update on me. Have a great week.

Whiskers on Kittens :)

Well, I have not posted in quite some time so I thought I would just let everyone know that life in South Dakota is rather uneventful. At least Chris and I enjoy are jobs so that's good. Hehe.

My first doctor appointment is not until October 14th. The doctors here don't want to see the mommy until she is about 11 weeks along. Everyone keep their fingers crossed that everything is going according to plan :)

Well, just a random post to add to the page. Have a great rest of your week everyone. Goodnight :)